Saturday, April 11, 2015
Finding Yourself And Owning It
"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18 ESV
This entry is my therapy. It is also a personal message to my friends and family. It is also my plea and hope for anyone reading this going through the journey of discovering who you are in a world of opposite minded people.
I very recently took a 2 month hiatus from Facebook for many reasons. I needed to run away from current vaccine news and proposed exemption law changes; I needed to focus on my children, my home, my schoolwork and myself. Since I met Dana and opened my eyes to the fact that my child was very sick, I've had to question everything I thought I knew about the world: healthcare, food, cleaning products, pollution, politics, my morals, pretty much everything that made up my life. I changed direction in my journey of life from a once pre-nursing student to a current holistic health practitioner student. Seeing my child in pain and constantly confused or angry hurt me on such a deep level, I would have walked thousands of miles on flaming glass to make him better. And with God's amazing grace, I have almost achieved his entire healing. We have a few more hurdles in the way, but I count my blessings each day for the incredible healing he has had in such a short amount of time. So many of my friends in the same situation are not so lucky.
As you can imagine or most likely already know, becoming the mother who is trying to heal or "cure" her child of a mostly thought of behavioral/mental/genetic disorder can bring about some controversy with friends and family, even the ones closest to you. My experience and studying brought out the outspoken advocate within me and I'm quite vocal about what I've learned and what I believe in. I've lost friends and I've lost a lot of respect from people I care about. I've had days where I just sat staring at the lowering friend count on Facebook and cried. It hurts a lot when the ones you love think you're crazy and turn away. It's almost enough to make you question yourself and what you stand for. I've seen it happen to so many of you.
This is when it is time to dig down for your strength. You know who you are and what you stand for. So stand for it. There are so many people like you. For every friend I've lost, I've gained at least 5 more. They understand my journey because they are on it too. They're out there and they are easy to find. I see mothers and fathers going through hell to save their children- Fighting with the school district for a proper education for their child, doing intensive healing protocols to clear out toxins and parasites, battling insurance companies for diagnostic tests and expensive treatments, trying to help their child make friends. They are with you and they want to help and commiserate with you. I owe so much of Elijah's healing to the mothers I've met within the vaccine injury community. The Thinking Moms Revolution was my first step. Their stories are my story and we are a family. This entire community has joined together to not only help heal our children, but advocate for future generations. We are everywhere, speaking out for our medical rights in battles all over the country and world where the government wants to mandate vaccines and force our children to suffer more harm. We have stopped some of these laws in their tracks and continue to fight against the others. We have a voice and unless we use it, our children will not heal.
I will not shut up and I will not stop my fight to make anyone else more comfortable. I have accepted that I have lost friends and will continue to. That's ok. My life will not be measured by my friend count.
Do not compromise your mission for anybody. Not just for your child, but for yourself. Speak up when you see something wrong and spread your message. You will be laughed at, mocked and ridiculed but it doesn't matter. All that matters is that you don't let them beat you. Your story matters and someone, somewhere will hear it and be changed for the better. Find yourself and own it.