Sunday, February 17, 2013

The road to injury, the path to recovery.

I know it's a bit inappropriate to take such a long hiatus between posts, especially after the debut. We could blame it on writer's block but honestly, I think it's pure terror. I know Dana was traumatized after reliving Keanu's story. This is far from an easy thing to do but we want nothing more than to be perfectly honest, open and real. We want to do our part to change the world, but also to be there for other parents who have been traumatized in a similar way. The only way to do that, is to face the demons of the past and relive it everyday, every minute. So here I am to share the road to Elijah's injury. Please bear with me, this is not easy.

Elijah was born in July 2008. I had a normal first pregnancy. I avoided the right foods, didn't medicate myself when I was sick, I worked until it wasn't safe anymore (dog boarding/daycare facility), and we walked at least 10 miles a week during my third trimester. I even managed to avoid getting a flu shot despite it being pushed on me at every OB visit. Giving the flu shot to pregnant women was a brand new concept in 2008, so the OB didn't even have any in stock, they just kept telling me to go to the pharmacy and get one. Well, I'd never had a flu shot before and I wasn't about to get one now. So, the afternoon of July 24th, I went into labor and after a quick labor with a heavy dose of epidural, Elijah made his appearance at 11:22 PM. I wish I could say he was perfectly healthy upon delivery, but he was in distress. His first apgar score was a 2 and he was quite blue. The nurses were able to revive him fairly quickly and his second apgar score was a 7, then 9. It was just a frightening moment they said. He is fine. And he was. He was perfect. He received his very first vaccine immediately. Hep B.

Elijah at birth

I didn't get to nurse Elijah until after his vaccination. He didn't want to latch. I attributed it to my ignorance and lack of experience. But this continued to be a problem for weeks. After one infection after another (and antibiotic after another), I gave up and just started pumping. I pumped for 13 months, probably the only right thing I did the entire first year of his life. By the end of 2008, he had 16 doses of 6 vaccines: Hep B, Rotavirus, DTaP, Hib, Polio, and Pneumococcal. Yes, by 5 months old he had taken as much poison into his body as I had my entire life. 

His sleeping habits were normal until about this time. Then they went horribly crazy from then up until he was 4 years old. Aside from that, he was a very normal baby. He drank well from the bottle and loved his pureed baby food when we started those around 7 months old. He started crawling on time, he was walking at 10 months old. By 12 months old, he had a few words. When he turned 1, he had 28 doses of 10 vaccines: we add in more Heb B, more Rotavirus, more DTaP, more Hib, more Polio, more Pneumococcal and started our first rounds of MMR, Varicella, Hep A and a flu shot. At 15 months old, we added another round of DTaP and Pnueomococcal. **Please remember the MMR and DTaP are 3 in 1s so they count for 3 doses per shot.** So 32 doses by 15 months old.

Me with Elijah (10 months old) He loved the water before 
we lost him. Now, he hates it.

Elijah the day before his 1 year well child visit

Elijah one month after his 1 year child visit. The light wasn't out
completely yet, but we noticed the change.
Elijah at 21 months old. 6 months after his 15 month shots. The light is gone.

This is when we lost him. This complete onslaught of vaccines in such a short time was the end of our normal, healthy child. This is when we saw the switch in his brain go off. Perhaps his traumatic birth put him at risk for this. Perhpas his brain was already predisposed to autism. What I DO know, is he was never evaluated for that risk. He was blindly jabbed to the point of near oblivion. He stopped eating, sleeping, talking, playing  and interacting. He started to go into himself. This is when his OCD tendencies began along with meltdowns.
I could go into a very detailed description of just what he went through, but autism parents reading this already know. The list could take days to describe so we will leave that for another post. To say the least, the effect this had on me was devastating. I can't describe the emotions and heartbreak of watching my son regress into himself. Into an angry, hurt and sick person. You shouldn't have to sit by and watch your child stim or hit themselves out of pure frustration.

In 2010, we had him evaluated for early intervention with our school district as recommended by the pediatrician. His complete change in personality didn't seem to bother her a bit and was perfectly normal by her standards. Perhaps they were normal by her standards. How many hundreds of kids had she done this to? Elijah qualified for many areas of developmental delays and was quickly enrolled in the program.

Still, we vaccinated. One more round of Hep A, Hib, and Pneumococcal. It was at this appointment that the pediatrician decided it was time to get him on the 9 month waiting list at Seattle Children's Autism Center for evaluation. This was the last time we saw her. By now, I had met Dana and learned what I had done to Elijah. The rest you could say, is history. He was diagnosed in March of 2012. But we knew a year before. We knew when we saw the light go out at 15 months old. But we pushed the damage further.

2012 saw many great milestones. His new preschool teachers and therapists worked wonders. Coupled with a huge diet change and a year of no more vaccines, we saw our son start to come back to us. In April, I went on a road trip with the kids and my mom to Las Vegas for my sister's wedding. Elijah loved it so much. We discovered he loves to travel. He flourished. When we got home, even his teacher noted the change in him. He was starting to speak and interact with other students. That June, we went on another roadtrip with my husband to California. Again, he thrived. Ever since then, its been a progression of complete progress. His IEP goals are being met and he tries to play with other kids now instead of just watching or following them around imitating them. I'm so incredibly proud of him. We have a very, very, very long road ahead of us but I feel that we are on the right path towards recovery. Perhaps someday, we will see a full recovery. It's a long shot of a dream, but I dare to dream it. 

                                                                      Elijah January 2013

Cheers! ~Nicole

Wednesday, February 6, 2013


Ahh, immunity, we all want that for ourselves and children right? A life free of serious illness or disease....

But, what is so ironic is that the products we are sold for immunity.... have a different form of immunity themselves - they are immune from any responsibility should their product be harmful to us, or worse, deadly.

My son Keanu was diagnosed with autism in 2005.

I can only speak for him, I can only tell you what happened to my child, and I can tell you with no uncertainty, that he changed after every vaccination, and he changed for the worst.

He was a bright, babbling 1 year old baby, he was learning new words, he waved "bye bye" to my husband every time he left for work, he played hide and seek with me all over the house, he mimicked me when I taught him where his eyes, nose and mouth were, he ate a wide variety of foods, he slept through the night, his digestive tract was fine.....until his MMR vaccine at 14 months of age, and a flu shot shortly after (recklessly given to him while he was sick).

He was never the same baby again. But, I continued to follow the recommended vaccine schedule until he was 2 years old, not knowing that vaccines were injuring him neurologically, and he continued to regress in health and development.

He stopped eating, he stopped sleeping through the night, he lost eye contact, never again responded to his name, never mimicked me again, or waved bye-bye, and began a plethora of new, odd behaviors we had never seen before.

I want to tell you that in 2004, when these issues began, I didn't know what Google was, I wasn't on Facebook or Twitter, I had an AOL account for email, I watched the nightly news.... but I never saw any other babies with autism, I had no idea what autism was, because I never knew any kids with autism growing up !

I honestly thought that all baby boys' were this hard, this fussy. I was a new mom, living in a new town with no friends with small kids to compare my toddler with. He had a little cousin who was the same age, but, I thought boys were just so different to girls. She was so much more advanced and I attributed it to gender.

I could see he was sick - but, I had no idea why or what to do.

I became pregnant with our daughter, and he was up all night, so I never slept either, he barely ate, I was so distressed  - I was exhausted and pregnant and watching him spiral out of control.

When I gave birth to Jasmine, my Mother came to help us, it was she who researched his symptoms for me, she was the first to suggest the word 'autism' and it terrified me, I had no idea what it was or what it meant. As frightened as I was, I knew it was true, he showed every sign.

We quickly began our quest for information on how best to help him (with a 2-week old baby in tow)  my Mother found the Generation Rescue website, it explained the connection between vaccines and autism -  and we headed straight for a DAN!
Doctor to help us.
(Physicians who dedicate their practice to helping children injured by vaccines or other environmental insults.)

I believe highly in Biomedical treatments, we have only been able to do them on/off with Keanu due to the financial costs.

It was in 2008 that I was given the name of an Attorney in New York who's son was also affected by vaccines and autism. He was accepting cases for children like my son, at no cost to the families.  I called him immediately.
He agreed that my son had a "very strong case" - but, always maintained that even PERFECT cases will be rejected. We proceeded anyway. We both spent hours of time preparing documentation, I gathered every shred of medical records from the time he was born, all vaccine records, school records, therapists' notes, lab test results stating his high levels of heavy metals (found in vaccines) I got testimonials from every Physician who examined my child (was even escorted OUT of the office of the Dr. who gave him the flu shot.)
I drove all over town getting written statements from many people - I did long phone consults.

This went on from 2008-2013.

We are officially done and we have officially LOST.

My son is now 10. He still has a damaged gut, he still barely eats, he is considered moderately autistic, he is also considered non-verbal. He has no sense of danger, he needs so many therapies, NONE of which are covered by our health insurance.

We are still in the process of being approved for a medicaid waiver for some limited therapies, no approval yet.

So, to think now, all of this from his vaccines, a life so drastically altered forever, from those vaccines. And the vaccine makers are IMMUNE from all liability of damage they caused him.

Please research vaccine safety.
Please research vaccine adverse reactions.
Please do the work that I wish I had done, now that you have the tools and the information.

I will leave you all with this quote by Ginger Taylor (co-author of the book VACCINE EPIDEMIC) as I believe it sums it up perfectly;

"The vaccine industry is a 27 billion dollar per year business. It is as near as you get to the Federal Reserve and the Treasury as a license to print money. Vaccines are marketed and purchased by the US government and vaccine makers are immune from any financial or any other kind of liability when their vaccines kill or maim the American people. If you had a product line that you didn't have to advertise, that every child in the country had to buy (several times) and that you could not be sued for, and that even when one of your products was known to cause widespread death and damage, you could STILL go a decade or more with out having to go to the expense of updating it... how hard would you fight to keep that golden goose a'layin'?"

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Inflammation Nation: Wake up, America

Today, we're going to discuss inflammation. It is the bane of the human body. Let's first look at what inflammation can do, and this is just barely scraping the surface. And then, I'm going to rant. Fair warning :)

Inflammation= Skin issues. Eczema, psoriasis, dermatitis.

Inflammation= Stomach issues. Leaky gut, gastroenteritis, yeast overgrowth, bowel problems.

Inflammation= Severe food allergies.

Inflammation= Swollen kidneys.

Inflammation= Lung issues. Asthma, chronic croup, chronic RSV.

Inflammation= Chronic ear infections.

Inflammation= Joint issues. Arthritis of all types (osteo, rheumatoid, gout)

Inflammation= Autoimmune issues. Lupus, Chrohn's, Celiac, Fibromyalgia, Guillain-Burre, Graves, MS, etc, etc, etc.

Inflammation= Brain swelling. Encephalopathy/Encephalitis. Encephalopathy= seizures, myelin damage, SIDS, Autism, ADHD, Shaken Baby Syndrome, major physical and developmental disorders and delays.

As I said, this is just a small sample of inflammation related disorders. Now tell me, how many of these issues can you attribute to your own child? Chances are, at least one or two. Why? Why are we a nation full of inflammation in our bodies? Can we really sit here and say it's "normal" or "genetic?" Did you suffer from these issues as a child? Did your parents? Did their parents? Doubt it. 

It's time we realize where all this inflammation is coming from. It comes from gluten, aluminum, preservatives, MSG, pesticides, thimerosal, aspartame, formaldehyde, fetal bovine serum, human diploid cells (aborted fetus), yeast protein and so, so much more. Everything I just listed can be found in either our current food supply or in the ingredients were are shooting our kids up via vaccinations. You can find the CDC's list of vaccine ingredients Here. Scary stuff, am I right? Oh, and lets not forget the organ damage from all that tylenol we're pumping our kids with for every tiny fever. 

Have you taken a look at our current CDC vaccine schedule? It's quite insightful. I'm willing to bet it's at least double or more the size it was when you were a child. I was a 90's child. Graduated high school in 2005. My vaccine records show 16 doses of vaccines total. My son had 37 doses of vaccines by the age of 3. Yes, his brain sure did react to those inflammatory ingredients. Your child's body probably has, too, if not in his or her brain, then in other areas. Every single disease and disorder I mentioned above is a common "vaccine injury." 

So what are you going to do about it? Well, that's up to you. But here comes my rant. Are you ready? 

RANT: It's time to start taking personal responsibility for what we put in our bodies, especially our childrens' bodies. Stop shifting that job onto pediatricians and other doctors. They don't care or possibly even realize that all this inflammation is connected. It's not their job to make these decisions for you, so stop letting them. Don't make the mistake of having complete trust in doctors and government officials who profit from the pushing of these vaccines and poisoned food. The CDC cannot be unbiased in their job of promoting vaccines and being in charge of vaccine safety. Conflict of interest? Chya, big time. 

It's time to put our big girl and boy undies on, open up some vaccine inserts found Here, and do our OWN research. KNOW what you are putting in these tiny bodies and what can happen when you do it. I cannot make you do this. I cannot spoonfeed the risks and death numbers into your brain for you. It's tedious, it's frightening, it's maddening and you will want to run away from it. Don't. Almost every child in America is dealing with the effects of our refusal to see the truth. Almost every child is dealing with inflammation somewhere in their precious bodies. Save them. 

Inflammation Nation, we must change. 1 in 88 children on the spectrum and growing. They cannot wait. 

Cheers. -Nicole